Addicted

Addicted

I am an addict. Its about time that I admitted that to the world. There is no point in hiding it. It has become part of my life. No running away from it.

I was hooked at a tender age. My neighbour had a Russian PC (made in the USSR. hehe!!! not joking, not joking ) and the the year was 1991 AD. He used to let me mess around with it. I somehow managed to find a Pac-Man clone in that rig and to his consternation, refused to give up the computer for hours at a stretch. I was an innocent and the devil was wreaking havoc in my head.

I couldn't convince my parents to get me a computer then, as it was still considered more of a luxury than a necessity. I attacked hand held consoles and TV games with a vengeance for many years. The funny thing is that I was never good in any game. It seemed that most of my friends had a natural flair in gaming. I was the eternal loser, except to the occasional nOOb(newbie). Life went on and I continued gaming at all the places where I could without hurting my purse, ie. at friends' places. I was a leech, in a sense.

Finally I got a rig in the next millenium, in 2000 AD. It was a riot. I played all kinds of games in it. Bring me a game and I would have played it, irrespective of its playability and how good (or bad) it was. I used to spend long long hours in front of the Philips 105s monitor, fighting demons, leading armies, kicking ass, et al. And there was a very interesting team working behind this. I was working the keyboard, on movements and weapon selections, etc. and my friend and neighbour, Subin was handling the mouse. This was considered freakish by many. Anyways, we were really coordinated and skilled together. And, while playing alone, we were both dunces. I kept upgrading the rig periodically, telling my parents that it was absolutely necessary for running new versions of C++ and what not.

Then began the cheating era. I have become a very lazy person nowadays. I don't want to work hard, and my primary aim is to use shortcuts, in real life and in the virtual one. I began using cheats, on all games, for finishing them faster. I can't be called a gamer in the true sense any more. I am an unskilled devil in an evolving game world. But, I win, 'cos I cheat.

I was addicted to games at one point in my life. Now I am addicted to the habit of using cheats on all the games that I play. I wonder, whether I will resort to fraudulent practices in future, in 'real' life, that is.

so said -Poison- the in(s)ane one @ Wednesday, August 03, 2005

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