Déjà vu

The warm summer wind was caressing me as I walked along the shadowless footpath, making my way to the usual haunt. The heat sapped me, made me lose my bearings. Yet, I survived the day and made it back to my abode, only to be shattered by a vile fever. It was deja vu. Wired up with a tube, the hospital room my companion. I was in a different hospital in a different city one year back. Similar conditions. Felt pretty bad. Got discharged yesterday. Found myself too weak to go in today. Went and bought a copy of the gita translated by an Englishman. The only other translation available seemed pretty bulky to me. Maybe I should start reading this for some inspiration.

Deadly secrets tag

Well... I am bored. I am sober and bored. So I have lifted this tag rather unceremoniously from E-company. La!


1. LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN A THEATER: 10000 BC... Went with two sober guys and two drunks. Was fun. Especially when the black tribe chief tells the hero - Hello p***amone! (It sounded just like that!)

2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? 'Blind Willow. Sleeping Woman' by Haruki Murakami, my new idol.

3. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? Carroms?

4. FAVORITE MAGAZINE? Business Standard Motoring... Haven't been keeping up lately. Bah.

5. FAVORITE SMELLS? Well. Petrol and women's perfumes.

6. FAVORITE SOUND? Diabolo menthe!

7. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? The despair of existence when there is nothing left to occupy myself with.

8. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE? Is this a dream? Fuck, what's the time..!

9. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE? Fountain Plaza, Fountain Jn, CST.

10. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME? Z. (Zee or Zed as the case may be)

11. FINISH THIS STATEMENT. "IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY I'D...? give it away.

12. DO YOU DRIVE FAST? Yup. No apologies since I haven't rammed anyone so far.

13. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? No!

14. STORMS-COOL OR SCARY? Hate 'em. Bad memories get triggered by 'em.

15. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? Fiat 1100

16. FAVORITE DRINK? Cannon 10000. Too bad I quit. Miss ya.

17. FINISH THIS STATEMENT, "IF I HAD THE TIME I WOULD ..... be asleep.

18. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS ON BROCCOLI? Never tried it, at least consciously.

19. IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR, WHAT WOULD BE YOUR CHOICE? White.

20. NAME ALL THE DIFFERENT CITIES/TOWNS YOU HAVE LIVED IN. Trivandrum, Chennai, Mumbai.

21. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Formula One.

22. ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU. bE whaT yoU wannA bE... dO whaT yoU wannA dO...

23. WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED? An ant colony.

24. WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE BORN AS YOURSELF AGAIN? I can't even handle this stint..No, thanks.

25. MORNING PERSON, OR NIGHT OWL? Night owl.

26. OVER EASY, OR SUNNY SIDE UP? Sunny side up.

27. FAVORITE PLACE TO RELAX? On the beach. Shangumughom or Valiyathura or Vettukadu or Kovalam or Marina or Elliot's or Marina or Juhu or Chowpatty. Just love 'em beaches. Coming to think of it, I have always lived in seaside towns.

28. FAVORITE PIE? American Pie 1 - 5

29. FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? I don’t like ice creams.

30. OF ALL THE PEOPLE YOU TAGGED THIS TO, WHO'S MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND FIRST? Not taggin anyone. It's open source now! Have fun!

Leashed

Life hasn't been kind. And I haven't been living either. In this losing battle, have I decided to throw the bloodstained yellow towel in, and call a truce with the ephemeral.

He stands in front of me, translucent and white. He has the power to invoke heaven's storm bolts down on to my sun stained head. For, he is malicious. For quite a while it has been a brute's game of chess, with him making all the crafty moves. And I like the naive I am, have I stood fast and took all that he could throw at me, begging for some more, yet breaking down too often too, alas.

It's too hard fighting life. The best course which has appeared to me is to give into this white force. Let it lead me to wherever it wants me to go. I am no magus. Yet I can be led on, like a beast on a leash. Willing to be dragged on, because it has no real will of its own.