Infernal Affairs 2

Continuous hell embodies three components - Uninterrupted time, unlimited space and boundless suffering

It is sheer agony when you realize you are helpless and powerless. Darkly comical too.

Tanha tanha

Tanha tanha yahan pe jeena ye koi baat hai
Koi saathi nahin tera yahaan to ye koi baat hai

Ye zindagi to vaise ek saza hai
Saath kisika ho to aur ye maza hai

Way to go Gen. Pres. Musharraf!

Everyone is blasting Musharraf about his decision to proclaim an Emergency situation in Pakistan. As if, he is trying to cover his ass as the Great Dictator - that's what the media calls him these days..

I am on Musharraf's side. I believe that he is doing what he is doing in order for the future stability of Pakistan.

Has anyone thought about what is going to happen if Mush bows out and hands over the power to 'democracy' ? The democratic parties will woo the fanatics(who have immense influence right now) for votes, and ultimately something resembling the erstwhile Afghan Taliban will take over the reigns of a nuclear power state.

In the current situation, I wish I could do something to give my support to the General.

Screeching tires, and flaming metal.
Free shoes, and longer walks.
What signs be these of..

Marionette

Something is not right. As a matter of fact, everything is wrong. I don't feel that I am living my life. Is this what was 'written' for me by God or his minions? Can I change it? Can I alter the script or will it ultimately be an illusion that I feel, the fact being that it too was in the script. I am a marionette.

Why do I feel that I can change the script. It is because I have the power to do so. I am the mythological superman who hasn't found his power so far. My power would be my initiative, bolstered by commitment and other subtleties.

But why? I too am on a path to the seemingly inevitable realm of death. Will it do me any good or bad if I choose to stick with the morals that my society has imprinted on my psyche. I can't say that I am a very moral man, as I break a lot of laws. Still there is that little moral fiber still entrenched in my kernel.

Why should I get rid of it? It is an interesting question this one. The answer is that - because it will transform me into something different from what I am right now. It will alter my state of extreme apathy to seemingly important things like stability, wealth, power and love. Until I try I can never be sure what changes will actually happen once this transformation happens. I have a hunch that all humans possess latent powers of gargantuan scales.

Tapping these powers for purposes good or bad, is merely dependent on the awareness and initiative of the individual. The evolutionary processes continue as each man progresses to become the mythical superman. Then again, this depends on the rate of degradation vs the rate of progressive evolution.

My values are different from that of most people I know. This is not because I know what my values are, but because I know that I cannot empathize with their values.

Echoing this from an academic perch is easy. Getting down from here and micro managing the actual grit of life is something that I have always shied away from. Fears, I have many. These are common fears. Fear of the future and the fear of society's reactions of my actions. I am afraid of certain forms of punishment. Alas, these are but avatars of the ultimate desire for self preservation. I am attached to myself.

I am a parasite who craves for the well being of my shell. What can such a parasite accomplish? String the flesh puppet to its beck and call?

Alas, in spite of all these trailer trash thoughts, my current perception of reality is that I am being guided through motions and thoughts which the marionette manipulator wishes me to traverse. I wonder who is the manipulator. I wonder who manipulates the manipulator.

Niki's Book-Cover Tag

I was tagged by my friend, Niki-chan who was tagged by Pijush-chan, to take the Book-Cover Tag
domo arigato!! the subject is Book-Cover Tag.

***Rule (there is only one): Go to the advanced book search on Amazon, type your first name into the Title field, and post the most interesting/amusing cover that shows up.

Well, my monicker here be Poison, and the toxicity did draw out a nice title from the Amazon dungeons!

From Booklist

Although Wooding's second stand-alone youth fantasy has its share of violent deaths and other terrifying episodes, the title refers not to a deadly toxin but to its eponymous violet-eyed heroine. Quick-witted, fierce, and fed up with living in a community where residents view misfortune as inevitable, Poison fights back when her baby sister is spirited away by "phaeries." She faces obstacles both physical and mental. In one pivotal scene, she meets her own creator, an all-powerful storyteller whose revelations prompt ruminations about self-determination and the nature of reality. Some readers won't appreciate the shift from familiar quest-story action to quiet, more metaphysical upheavals, and Poison doesn't emerge triumphant in the way that many will expect. Still, Wooding's serpentine plotting and lush, imaginative writing have something to offer to both the more mature audience of The Haunting of Alaizabel Cray (2004) as well as slightly younger genre fans. Try this on readers who enjoyed Angie Sage's Magyk (2005). - Jennifer Mattson