Case Study - Bruin

Bruin appears to you as the everyman. He has a face and a body which could be hard to pick out from the melting pot of humanity in which he sought to thrive in.

His body language is more interesting. He moves as if his entire body is stiff and a long time ago, he had stopped moving his arms while walking, since it seemed to be more efficient in his perception.

He used to read a lot of books and boy, did they make an impression on him. He had read of the oriental concept of 'hara' from a Lustbader novel, and tried to emulate the motion of a person who had 'hara', the central rooting force in the human body.

He didn't know anything about 'hara'other than what the books told him. Most gaijins always walked with a bounce in their stride. People with 'hara' lacked that bounce. They moved with purpose. The end result was that his movements became robotic. This gait became associated with him. It looked intimidating and robotic to most.

If Bruin stood alongside anyone the same size as him, either in girth or length, he would appear to be the smaller one. His body structure or language was such.

If we move along, and start analyzing Bruin's mind, we would encounter a weird mix of everything which has gone wrong, either completely or in parts.

Bruin manifests himself as a being who is eager to showcase his efforts for any cause that he is with. The fact, however, is that secretly he wishes for the defeat of that very cause. He wants to live and he wants to die. He loves portraying himself to himself as well as to others as 'he man who tried', but couldn't succeed because of overwhelming external forces.

I guess that is so, because he doesn't know what he wants really. He thinks that he wants to be an old man, secure in his lone lighthouse, reminiscing his colourful life while a thunderstorm rages without. Beautiful is not the word I can think of to describe this trait of Bruin's. I am partial towards the use of the word 'wishful' in its place.

He carries many painful scars in his memory. The make him older in some aspects. Thankfully, he has a memory which forgets most things, until they are re-triggered into life by some catalyst. He wishes that he could withdraw from this world completely and watch it from some coccoon as the dramas enfold. Crazy old Bruin.